Ferran Nicolls

:: AGE

25

:: LOCATION

San Diego, California, USA

:: MEDIUM

Sculpture, Drawing, Painting, Singing

:: IDENTIFIES AS

Basic lady. Irish Italian, but mostly Italian

How do you define art?

For me, I think of it as just making cool shit. It’s also creative expression – I’ve had a lot of struggles with depression and anxiety and I’ve had therapists tell me that because of my personality, like if I’m not creating that is crushing my soul and that’s making me feel worse. So I need to constantly be creating something or doing something productive and creative to kind of keep my soul alive and that’s what it does for me and that’s how I like to think of it- kind of like fuel for my soul almost.

Why do you think it’s important for women to create?

I think it’s important for women to do everything. I don’t think they should be held back because of their gender. I’m in web design and it’s a very male dominated field. There aren’t a lot of girls who code or if they do, they’re on the back-end and they don’t get notoriety for that, as much as men do and that’s something I want to tap into. I want to be known for being the badass girl coder or designer and shit like that. I think most of my favorite artists are women, which is interesting and it’s not because they’re women but just because their style appeals to me more or something.

Who or what inspires you?

Right now because I’m into the sculpting thing and there is this girl her instagram name is @octoplum. She just makes these amazing sculptures and every time she posts something I just like want to cry because it’s so beautiful and amazing and exactly what I want to be doing and so she really got me to do this. I had been wanting to play with sculpture for a long time and just seeing her work really got me to go and try it.  I’ve been trying to draw and get better at drawing for years. Now I don’t enjoy it as much because it’s harder for me and I get frustrated easily but with sculpture it just makes more sense to me when I can physically manipulate something with my fingers versus having to draw a line perfectly – which takes a lot more skill … so sculpture is my new main jam, that’s what I want to do when I get home – I want to make another little thing.

What’s your space like that you create in?

Right now I have a little desk in my room and it’s full of all sorts of shit and it’s really messy. But that’s where I do my main work.

What do you like to listen to while you create?

I like Gardens and Villas.

How do you define love?

Love? Still trying to figure that out.

What message are you trying to send with your art?

Mostly I want to make stuff that is cool to look at. Something that you see and can’t stop looking at. I want to make stuff that I enjoy looking at because when I see cool art it’s stuff that I just can’t take my eyes off of and it just looks awesome. I just want to make rad shit.

What is your message to people who are afraid to create or doubt themselves?

You just gotta do it. I’ve been there- I’ve been afraid to do things because I think that I’m not going to be good at it but the only way you’re gonna get good is by practicing. Do it every day and don’t give up.

How do you make time to create?

I don’t sleep a lot. It’s hard. a lot of the time i just have trouble finding the motivation. But when I do I try to force myself to keep going and not stop halfway through because I won’t pick up again. When I have the motivation I just make myself do something- like doodle or do something.

The struggles with depression and anxiety are real and so often swept under the rug, so thank you Ferran for sharing your truth with us. We hope you continue to fuel your soul with creativity + light + love. PS- can we sculpt together soon?