When we don’t see ourselves identified or represented in social media or in any artistic platform – I know for me I grew up kind of doubting my own art. When I went to college I entered as an art major and a political science double major but I dropped out of my art major because at San Diego State University, the lack of funds for the art department was horrible. But also at the time I really doubted my artistic potential and I felt like I wasn’t capable of achieving the kind of art I wanted to express. For a long time I shut down on art. I went 4 years without drawing or writing the way I used to and I think that’s partly based on the fact that there isn’t really representation of women, specifically women of color and it was just really hard because I really regret dropping it sometimes. That’s why I’m going back to doing my zine project with my partner – we’re both just trying to create that space where we can express ourselves and our own personal stories and get back to empowering myself as a woman and maybe interconnecting with other women of color or other women artists. Growing up when you don’t see it, it’s really disruptive I think.
I like how Nina Simone defines it. Once you know you just know. There are not words to capture it or express it. But you just know it. For me love is just all the feeling is have and all the relationships I have- friends family lovers. That’s a hard question.
I like to be at home or anywhere where there’s coffee or something warm nearby – that’s when i feel most creative.
I guess mainly at home because I make coffee I don’t go out as much. Usually in the morning I’ll jot down notes or do drawings and I just feel most creative when I’m in a warm, safe space. Recently I’ve detached from my family for personal reasons and I think it made me re-creating a safe space with my partner at home, that’s where I get most creative and I feel like I’m able to be more vulnerable and let all those emotions out.
I listen to women of color artists. I don’t know why – my partner was getting annoyed because anytime I’m drawing or working on projects, I only listen to women. Women singers – like right now I’m into Kelly Uchis – she’s a Colombian immigrant I think and she sings in English and Spanish. I think mainly English – she reminds me of Amy Winehouse but Colombian. So I’ve been listening to her lately. I like Nina Simone. I don’t know why but when I’m in a very artistic mood I listen to women, and women only. I think something about female artists, they are just more emotional… i don’t know they just get to me. I see myself represented in them like Carla Morrison. She’s phenomenal, I can’t play her at home because I’ve played her too much. My partner has banned me from it. She’s huge in Mexico right now.
I try to get up extra early. I feel like being off any art medium for so long, I felt pretty depressed because I felt like I wasn’t letting all these feelings out. Now for my own sake and because I have all these ideas I have to let them out. It drains me even more not to express myself. Even if it’s an hour a day or 15 minutes a day, I feel like that’s what motivates me to keep it kinda consistent.
Art to me is a tool I can use as a political tool to express all of these beliefs and ideologies I carry and share that with people I’m close to and I love because they might identify with it or learn from it or even add to it. Being an artist is communicating with everyone in your community and being involved and sharing all of your stories and interacting with as many loved ones as you can.